Time keeps on ticking...

It has been a long time since I updated this but I have hope that I can preserve a few of the unique feelings that come from a first pregnancy.

I've known that we were having a boy since the beginning, those initial moments I knew that we would would have a blue bundle, so when we found out at 19 weeks that it was indeed a boy I was not surprised at all, and curiously enough there was no difference in my connection to my growing belly, you were no different in my mind. What changed is the growing reality of the family we were creating, and how I wanted it to be, more natural, closer to the childhood I had in the country. So now my mind turns often to moving and preparing for a kind of life I am envisioning for my children. It will take time and be simpler but in my mind is so dreamy.

On another note it is a short three months our duo will become a trio. I am calmer than I ever thought I would be and am quietly enjoying the pokes and prods of our little boy.

How do you keep a secret....

We kept the pregnancy a secret for as long as we thought wise, the customary 12 weeks, I am desperatly trying to hide it from work (my boss knows) for as long as possible, I am really hoping I can make it to Christmas, it is not that I am not totally happy about the pregnancy, but I do not want my work persona to be violently shifted from competent professional to pregnant lady. That and I enjoy keeping secrets and avoiding horrific labour stories for as long as possible.

It all starts so small...

A few months ago we discovered that I was pregnant, we have always wanted a family. In fact we talked about the optimal timing of when to start  as we ate dinner together the night after we were married (not that we had not talked about it before). But nothing happens as you plan and though we tried for about a year nothing happened so we decided that to take a break. That a break was the bes choice, and then, unexpectedly, suprisingly all of our careful planning was put aside and here we are.... delightfully happy.